I don't know what to do anymore... :( .. help?

Stop comparing yourself to your siblings. You are your own wonderful person. Do you live in the city or country? City- volunteer at the local boys & girls club, if you dont have the patience for children there is always animal & homeless shelters. Find your own goals set your own direction. What do YOU want out of life? If you are competing with everyone else at what they are doing how are you going to know what makes you happy? Sit down write a list of things you enjoy doing. Surf the web or check out the phone book & find goups & activites in your area you can become a part of. Stop trying to live there life & up to WHAT YOU THINK there expectations of you are & find your own path. Start by putting some action into your life & stop feeling sorry for yourself.